i think i'm going to stop coming onto this account to check messages. seeing things from people whom i used to be friends with, and just seeing these old things is making my chest ache. i want to talk to the old friends, but i just can't bring myself to do it. i'm too shy, and i don't feel comfortable talking to them anymore. i never did, with a few people. they just made me uneasy, like if i said the wrong thing, they'd get mad and hate me, or they'd tell me i was wrong and tell me all the right things. i just wanted to make them happy, so i tried to just say things that would make them laugh or happy, or just stay quiet.. i'm just a really